
well well well, everything seemed to go well in the end. best friends, food, whisky, vodka and wine, cigarettes, music, the cake as well. two uninvited people was a disappointing fact though. i mean, hello… it’s me! it’s someone who won’t feel comfortable being intruded by any people i do not expect. like my closest friends always say: ‘dina does not meet anyone who comes to her house without invitation–and that’s on the daily basis’. it does not matter wether i like the people or not, i do not like the fact. well, forget about! i would like to thank my friends and some special people for the party:
thank you philip, and sunya, and rosa, and mbok ginem
thank you bino, rachel, tim, jepara and ara
thank you cindhil, panjul, plentonk, vidya, yennu, andy, and asa
thank you wildan and gombloh, and also ambar
thank you for lightening up the party and sharing the joy with me.
i hate the fact that i have to get myself organised for party. look at some people around me–they’re trying to get the party organised for me, and they have ignored my feelings and happiness before the party even started. i do not want to join them and ignore my own heart. i mean, if i myself has lost all the joy how could i share it with my guests? so would you get the party organised for your fuckin‘ sake? don’t involve me–even though it should be my party.